Come smoke through

As you can see there are virtually no updates in the past few months. There have been some changes made in my life. I have been a chain smoker for more than 10 years and this time I have decided to quit. I have successfully stopped smoking for almost 2 months now. Some people believe that diminishing cigarette consumption is a good approach but these didn't hep me stop at all. Even nicotine patches and stuff like that. These things just maintain peak withdrawal and would just prolong your suffering until you come back to your old habits. So yeah cold turkey is the best way. Just survive for 3 days then go for 2 weeks. Just imagine this as a test of will.

My doctor told me that for every cigarette that you smoke the damage don't come until 20 years later. Like if I started smoking when I was 18 years old then I will feel the first real destructive effect of that stick when I am 38. So if I continued on smoking until today then I would just keep further damaging my systems. Now let's assume that this is true then we will definitely need ways to stop those incoming negative effects. Maybe we can prevent them from happening. On some of the stuff I've read around the net, the nicotine is purged entirely off your system if you stopped smoking for 2 weeks. Then how come further damage is expected? I have to ask my doctor about this but not until our next meeting which would probably be after the holiday season. Some suggestions I got from the net are the following.

1. Exercise.

2. Go to the sauna.

3. Smoke marijuana.

I had been playing around with these ideas.

1 requires much focus and dedication. What levels of patience you can learn from it you can apply to other aspects of your life.

2 is great. If there are no saunas near you, you can make your own steam-bath at home, by either constructing a steam-bath room or just by using water heaters in your bathroom. Google offers a bunch of methods.

3... Recently, I'd been smoking again at night to help me relax or whenever I badly need cigarettes. It's bad that they totally relieve me of my sense of focus so I just use them when there's nothing else to do but go to bed.

What is the reason that I am doing this? I have decided that my methods have to change. I am so dependent on 'the mood' and I always bitch about stuff that don't really exist. I feel a lot of shitty things happening with my body. Some people call these as symptoms of getting old but I do not want to feel these as early as in my early 30s. Long story short I am unhealthy. If I am going to build fantasy worlds then I have to be healthy inside and out. I asked Soulscorpion one time if it was right to feel guilty for not having released content in the last couple of months but he simply told me that what's a few unproductive months if you can come back refreshed and better than before? So I am like undergoing this metamorphosis again like other artists do every now and then. I just hope I can emerge as something much cooler and better skilled than I ever was. 

To those, if there are any, who liked reading some of my 'Come and Smoke Through' posts in NG before you may remember that I wrote that stuff for each to last a stick of cigarette. Well, lol.

Oh yeah, what does this have to do with being unproductive?
- Quitting cigarettes makes you lose all focus that you have, makes you have a bleaker view of the world and makes you eat all day and lazy as fuck. This also means that I have been broke for the last couple of months. To our supporters in Patreon, thank you very much, you have really helped us monetarily through tough times. Thanks for buying our food. We will make it up to you!

-DZ